of doing something random;
of being plunged into the depths of uncertainty;
of being able to surprise myself;
of living close to the edge.
I have been job-hunting for the past few days and the wait for feedbacks and replies from companies has been agonizing, to say the least.
Surprisingly, a few days ago, several companies replied to say that I was actually short-listed. I was so happy because for the past few months, I was feeling so down as I felt frustrated with how things were going. This was exactly what I needed to feel confident in myself again; in what I can accomplish.
drama. To celebrate my giddy mood, I impulsively decided to watch Twilight after getting some documents from my Alma Mater. It was actually refreshing to do something fun; something that did not involve work for the family business. I’d been itching to go out also as it’s been weeks since I last saw my friends.
What originally supposed to be a movie date with my friend, turned out to be a small reunion of sorts. As we were exiting the cinema, another friend texted me to say that he was waiting in Starbucks. We ended up chatting for 3 hours or so until I had to bring my other friend back home ‘coz of her curfew.
I wish all my weeks are as eventful and as exciting again! Ever since classes stopped, I seemed to be more and more solitary which at times is refreshingly good but more often than not, lonesome. Here’s hoping for that change, and it better come soon!
While taking a break from work, I was flipping through tv channels when I stumbled upon one of my all-time favorites shows: Sex and the City. HBO was re-showing all of the episodes from seasons 1-6 and since it’s been a while since I last watched the series, I tuned in.
The episode title was “I Heart NY” and it was about Big leaving New York (
and Carrie) because he decides to move to Napa. Carrie finds out about this as she visits his apartment to find that all the furniture is gone except for a few boxes of old records and a record player. Big suddenly puts on one of the records and Moonriver starts playing and both of them start dancing to it. What started out as fun-dancing later on became such a slow and sensual dance filled with so much emotion and sexual tension.
Unbelievable as it may seem, it made me believe again in love. I have been a cynic when it comes to such things and for the longest time, believed that I would never get hitched with someone. That night, I actually found myself imagining my wedding and how Moonriver would be the song that would be played as I first dance with my husband.
I tried googling the lyrics to find out what the lyrics meant and I realized that they really didn’t make any sense (Well, to me at least); it doesn’t even sound romantic at all! I guess it really falls down to the smooth melody and how somehow I feel so attached to it. I still don’t know why.
I think that it was more than just coincidence that I stumbled upon this song. For the first time it how many years (I sound so old), I actually felt
Love and the longing for such a feeling. Who would know that such a small incident would make me be an optimist - and not anymore a pessimist, when it comes to love and relationships?
Well, I really hope that this holds true and I was just not overflowing with hormones that day! I guess this would only be proven if I get a boyfriend soon! *snickers* I’m keeping my fingers crossed!
I fell asleep prematurely, woke up at 4 AM and couldn’t go back to sleep. As I was looking around the internet for random stuff, I suddenly felt this inner longing to start a blog for no reason at all. Thus, the
spontaneous birth of this blog..
I have always been impulsive when it comes to making decisions - be it in choosing restaurants, shopping for clothes and even
dating men. Admittedly, I have made mistakes because of this but I don’t regret making any of them. My impulsiveness brought about more adventures and drama in what would be a blah existence. This blog aims to recount some of the (mis)adventures that I encounter in my day-to-day existence as I continue to Face Spontaneity.